"What happens with me after a fight is ......"
It was yesterday when my mom was yelling at me for some random topic, I just got angry and boom there was a fight between my mom and me. So What happens with me after a fight is ......
I have a short temper. Sometimes, I just lose my patience, and another version of me takes over.It can be your fault or just a misunderstanding, but when I burst, all hell breaks down. And then, I don't have any control over my tongue. I end up saying super mean things, things that I don't even mean. I refuse to pause and think rationally. And until that fire of anger is burning, I don't even realize what I have done. Infact, I would be even ready to do more, say more mean things. It's only when I cool down, I look back and realize what has just happened. And then, if I have said something really wrong, I feel terrible. I feel so,so bad that I want to hide somewhere or just slap myself for being such an idiot.I keep cursing myself.I keep burning in my soul in regret.
I am a flawed person.So, I do make my share of my mistakes.And when I make them, I end up acting like a totally shitty person, a person that I look back and feel so angry at.I have this problem when I get triggered. But after I cool down, I always do realize my mistake.I always do feel genuinely sorry.And I always do go back to the person to say my heartfelt sorry.I have no ego about it.I won't even say that you said this hurtful thing to me too.No, I don't need your sorry in return of my sorry.I just feel so heavy in my heart that I want to get rid of that burden.So what matters to me is that I tell my truth and apologize with all my heart.
That's how I have lived.I know many people keep grudges. I know many people look foe revenge.But I have this heart.I have this heart that I can't be consumed by hate after a point.I would always try to make things better again.I will always try to go back to that person and apologize.There is so much mess around us. Isn't it?
So many people are dying of depression.We should all try to make it better foe others.Say a genuine sorry to someone you have hurt. Give your genuine forgiveness to someone who has realized that mistake.It's good for both of us.Both our hearts will feel lighter.Both our souls will HEAL.
Did you find it relatable?
Yeah ? So do the same thing that I have done !!!
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