"I hardly Call People"
I was never a loner. I always liked talking to people. I always had friends. My phone was always filled with calls and messages. But now, things have changed. I don't know what exactly has happened. But now, I hardly call people. I hardly do chit chat. I almost never send those forwarded jokes. Have I matured? Have I gone into hiding? Have I become an introvert? I don't know. But I have certainly found my peace in this change. I get more time for myself now. I don't need people to keep me busy. I don't even get bored. I like being with myself. I have realized that I used to waste too much of my time on people. Not all, but many of them were just timepass bonds. They needed me at that point, and maybe, even I needed them. But there was nothing deep about us. Maybe we both found validation in each other. Maybe, we were just talking regularly to convince ourselves that we have friends around us. I know that's a cynical look back at the past. But looking at how I am still very comfortable in my life without so many conversations and people, I guess there was something not so pure about those past equations.
Yes, another important thing is that all of us have grown busy in our lives and we hardly get time for the calls and texts. But that's a half honest argument as when you really want to make time, you do make that time somehow. So maybe, we all have realized that being alone is not that bad. There is peace in reflecting on things on our own, without daily gossips and talks. Maybe, we all reach a stage in life when we get more comfortable with solitude. Our souls grow deeper. Our heart starts to understand emotions better. Maybe, that's life seeping in deep within us, whispering that now you are living it more, more intimately. So yes, I don't talk more now. But I am happy. And I hope now you know why I hardly call you up. It's not about you. It's not your fault. It's just me experiencing life in its new shade, the darker, calmer shade.
Yes, another important thing is that all of us have grown busy in our lives and we hardly get time for the calls and texts. But that's a half honest argument as when you really want to make time, you do make that time somehow. So maybe, we all have realized that being alone is not that bad. There is peace in reflecting on things on our own, without daily gossips and talks. Maybe, we all reach a stage in life when we get more comfortable with solitude. Our souls grow deeper. Our heart starts to understand emotions better. Maybe, that's life seeping in deep within us, whispering that now you are living it more, more intimately. So yes, I don't talk more now. But I am happy. And I hope now you know why I hardly call you up. It's not about you. It's not your fault. It's just me experiencing life in its new shade, the darker, calmer shade.
